Crossroads of Emotion

I sit here at the precipice of an all too familiar emotion
Yet I promise myself that this one will be different
That this adventure will be the one that changes everything

My life will change for the better
My life will be no worse for the wear

Just how much investment should I rely on
From the one that is holding my heart in the balance of their fragile mind

Am I doomed from the start, destined to be disappointed
Why do I put myself in this precarious position
To have my true essence disposed of so easily

My excitement wanes when it should be soaring
As I get the hint that the threshold of harmony is about to be violated
From which it may never recover
As I let my true feelings spill forth

Mistakenly I let my true colors show, I reveal who I really am
And that is too much, in this time and place, in the here and now
Is it too much to want something more, to feel loved in at least some part of your life

Destined to be unlucky, to still be searching for your bearer of the torch
The torch that lights the fire in your eyes, in your heart, and your very soul
The passionate flames igniting something primal inside of you

And my head keeps spinning, I can't stop having these visions.
I gotta get with it or get over it