Crossroads of Emotion

I sit here at the precipice of an all too familiar emotion
Yet I promise myself that this one will be different
That this adventure will be the one that changes everything

My life will change for the better
My life will be no worse for the wear

Just how much investment should I rely on
From the one that is holding my heart in the balance of their fragile mind

Am I doomed from the start, destined to be disappointed
Why do I put myself in this precarious position
To have my true essence disposed of so easily

My excitement wanes when it should be soaring
As I get the hint that the threshold of harmony is about to be violated
From which it may never recover
As I let my true feelings spill forth

Mistakenly I let my true colors show, I reveal who I really am
And that is too much, in this time and place, in the here and now
Is it too much to want something more, to feel loved in at least some part of your life

Destined to be unlucky, to still be searching for your bearer of the torch
The torch that lights the fire in your eyes, in your heart, and your very soul
The passionate flames igniting something primal inside of you

And my head keeps spinning, I can't stop having these visions.
I gotta get with it or get over it

Things I enjoy

The smell of the ocean
Fresh cut grass
The leather on a brand new baseball
Tradewinds
The first bite of a juicy hamburger off of the grill...with Tillamook Cheese of course...
Vista views
Diving headfirst into the Pacific ocean
Posting news on Facebook
Taking the perfect picture
Waking up before my alarm
That first taste of shave ice
Picture messages on my phone
Putting a lei on a guest
Getting emotional over a good book, movie, story
Letters in the mail
Talking to a former student of mine who has a success in their life
The color orange..preferably Beaver Orange
Blackberries and Marionberries
Getting my Netflix in the mail
A full tank of gas and a freshly washed car
My picnic basket full of Hawaiian Food
Swimming with sea turtles
Sunsets

The Rise to Mediocraty

Self-titled memoirs.......

Screwed over again

Some days I wonder why I put up with all the BS that I do...

It seems that with every corner I look around I end up getting a raw deal. Now I have a lot to be thankful for but sometimes, I guess I just need to call a spade a spade.

All things that have been less than stellar for me since I moved...but what can you do?

Sometimes I know I am too nice....but bachi should come around...I just wonder when...

A simple four letter word could fix a lot of the feelings incorporated by my melancholy nature...

If you figure out the word, then let me know.....4 years and counting....I wish I could quit you.....

Awe...

The world is such a beautiful place...

Even my own little niche carved out in Manoa....

I am in awe of mother nature and all her splendor...

Plus, beautiful women are easy on the eyes too...

Here's to gorgeous vistas, breathtaking views, memorable sunsets, and beautiful women....

Life is good

1 is the loneliest number...

Home is where the heart it...

But what if your heart is damaged?

Here are some pictures of the places I have called home....

St. Helens (pop 10,000)





Corvallis (pop 60,000)
















Durango (pop 12,000)













Los Angeles (pop 15 million)















Honolulu (pop 800,000)














4 cities I have lived in since left home in 1999, when I left home for school.

SB 09 Snorkleling Recap

Snorkeling extravaganza....

Kaiona Beach Park is my new official favorite spot on the island.

No more long lines, paying to park, killing my knees on the way down and up the hill, and tourists at Hanauma Bay.

Kaiona is so much better, especially since its not trashed with all of the garbage and people walking on the coral. Lots of pretty coral, fish, and bright blue water to partake in. Also a man-made lagoon with no rocks and warm water to boot, with a shore break to protect you from the wind and waves.

So if you are in the Waimanalo area, right past Makapu and Sea Life Park, but before Kenicky's shave ice...you are in luck!

Finallly...I'm back...for good this time..

So I am a bad, bad blogger. I have not written in months, but I am really gonna be better about this. I promise!

Here are some current thoughts from me...

• I miss baseball so much...i need to be coaching at some level
• I need to get more sun, more time away from UH, more time in the water
• I need to be more productive at work..in all actuality, I need to find my passion again..
• Not much to look forward to right now...march flew on bye and april will go even quicker
• I miss having a partner...but I am not looking right now...
• Dating has been hit or miss...mostly miss...ok, miss all the time...where are these psychos coming from?
• I need to save more money
• Should I do paddling or ukulele lessons this summer?